Sigh....

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It seems all my effort i've put in is all goin down

Since after i'm single for 1 and a half year.
And finally got 1 relationship thought that can prolong.
But seems i'm wrong again this time.

Everytime go out see other couples.
Some very long relationship like my friends 2 years or even longer than that.

I wanted to have a long term relationship
but it seems all goin down.

Either feeling faded, Run away with other guys or quarrel till very serious then break.
Sigh everytime this few things appear in my life of relationship.
I'm sick and tired le....

I thought of giving up
But i just don know why i cant do it
This feelings really makes feel like giving up my life too...

Nobody know how i feels.
Yet only myself.

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Darling...

Don let small problem affect our relationship.
And now your feeling become abit only.

Now i don know what to do.
Its really hurting me alot.

It makes me, don wanna continue my life.
You know how it feels anot?

Everytime i wanna have a prolong relationship.
But end up things just keep happening.
Last time my ex, how she treat me i told u before le.

I don wanna have this kind of relationship again.

I just wanna prolong this relationship.
Isit so hard?

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To My Love 1 Joanne.

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Darling,

I'm so sorry how i treat u so badly and the things i said before.
I really feel bad of myself till i cant forgive myself.
Never care about your feelings.
And i never get to know u feel stress in your work.

But trust me this time.
I wont do the same thing as i did before or said to u before.
I promise u wont happen again.

Now i just wanna ask u for a chance for me.
Take your time and think.
I wont rush u de.
But i hope u choose carefully.
And this chance i asking for really important to me.
Because i really wanna be with u.
I wont ask for more. But just to be with u.

U got anything that makes u unhappy please tell me.
At least share with me le. Will feel much better.

And please don go and stress yourself.
If not u will feel more tired.
Just relax your mind and give yourself a rest.
Whenever u goin to sleep just don think so much.

I don want you to feel stress or what.
I rather i'm the 1 who feel stress or whatever u feel.
Then u will feel better.

My POP is coming on Wednesday 09/09/09
Really hope u will come because this is my once and for all de POP

Don't Leave Me.
I LOVE U 1314.
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Hopefully things will go well....

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I really start to hate myself more...
Sometimes i feel like ending my entire life.


Today is the first nights out and POP is coming...
Yet i'm not really happy...

Because her feeling is fading...
Is all my fault never notice it...

Never care for her feeling...

Nothing is more important then her...
No matter how tired i am,
How poor i am,

I want her to have the very best.
Want her to be happy everytime,
Make her relax abit rather than feeling so stress about her work.

She is my only 1 in my heart no 1 will overtake her inside me...
I LOVE U JOANNE

Finally got the chance to update....

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One more week to P.O.P!!!
Is really very fast woo

Really tiring but really happy get to know my friends inside my Platoon.

DarLing 3rd month is coming le.
Really hope we can last till the very end together.

I miss u alot when i was inside camp.
One week can only see u 1 or 2 days only.... sigh....
Yet u just keep sleeping....
Wanna spend more time with u de lo.... But the time past so fast when u sleep.....

Sigh.....

Uhoo...

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After 1 year plus plus single now

Now i got my Darling le...

But then i going to ns soon.

Scare she will be alone. Very boring.

Hmm NS faster come faster go...

Cause i will be missing her...

12th June our first day.

Go find her then go out.

Go Vivo City liao then go Marina Square LOL.

Sigh~~~ AHHHH SOT LIAO...

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Hmm.. Don't know what happen to me today...
It seems so moody today...

No mood to work like this. But no choice work is work.
Can't put them together...

My Parents asked me whether wanna go Genting today anot.
But i don't feeling like going.
I scare she will feel boring this few days...

When time flys. It really fly like nothing happen....
But now it seems different...

One More Month Before NS...
Will there be someone special On the day when i P-O-P from NS?
Sigh~~~

Althought i tired to stop thinking of that.
But it seems so hard to stop thinking...

Just Hope She Will Be The One...

WoooHaaa

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Wooo so Long never update...

Recently things seems goin smooth....
Relaxing my Life now.

Since Going NS soon. Botak Botak!!!! OMG!!!

Hmm izzit my fate to know her?
Well its seems is wor...
Quite happy to know her also.

Finally Over.

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Finally finish my second year in Higher Nitec Dover.

And now waiting for the graduation day. Me and my friends planning to rent car.
Drive to school after that go out have fun le.

During chalet really enjoying.
Most irritating is the mosquitos.
Kanna Bite 5 times. so Itchy.

Never forget about my classmates.
ME2N!!!

Now i just feel like enjoying my life.
But think of working in Giordano my life seems so unhappy.

Sigh.
Forget about it.
Hope NS Letter come faster!

Sigh.

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Everytime i got a feeling for a girl.
But it's just seems to be, i'm the only one thinking too much.

So so and so on.
That i really make up my mind this will be the last time.
Till i finish my NS.
Which means 2 years plus away.

After NS come out then think about it.
It's so uncomfortable inside me.
I'm like a pathetic guy

sigh
If can forget everything
It might help me
But i cant.